I have never blogged before and I don’t consider myself to have lots of words to write down, but after finishing this blog, I see that I have many words. I certainly can express myself and use my “wisdom” in speaking to others face to face many times. Over the last few years God has done a work in me that came so subtlety that I didn’t really realize what had happened. When we came back to WOL nearly 11 years ago, up to that time, I never prayed out loud or had the confidence to speak before anyone. I tried to give church announcements, but they came out so boring and dull and I always told myself that this was the last time I would get up again in front of people. God has a way with the silliest or most menial things in getting us to be who he wants us to be. I began a ladies Bible Study and told myself I was only facilitating it, even until a month ago when I led my last one. That was not the case. I do have something to say and I do have Godly wisdom.
I love to be nostalgic and I have been looking over the last 10 years and have noticed how much God has done in me. Others have said that I have changed and gotten more confident. Now after all this time when I look back, I have a greater confidence of who I really am in Christ. Through the Steps to Freedom teachings of Neal T. Anderson, I have had a great revelation of who I really am in Him and now I can explain it to others more easily. I have been taught who I am in Christ for 30 years and over the last 6 years, finally “got” it. Now I am not afraid to stand up before people and give announcements, pray, exhort. During the ladies meetings, I began to lead them in prayer and I noticed that as I did it more and more, the confidence built up. I found the Holy Spirit giving me things to say and when I go through the Steps to Freedom with other ladies or join Terry in marriage counseling, I find the He gives me wise things to say and sometimes it has been a revelation to that person.
In the position we are in right now and having to believe God for every penny coming in, I find myself in so much peace, it is amazing. We have no church or no promised income. As a woman who takes care of our finances, in the past, I would have been totally distraught and crying all the time. I haven’t shed a single tear since the first 2 days this particular season started. I could shed tears about leaving all the people I love, but I decided not to do that either, except, maybe when it comes to leaving my grand babies soon.
I was thinking the other day about how it would aggravate me if my children were to say to me, “What are we going to wear or eat today?” I feel like that is something that is none of their business, because as parents, that is what we do; we supply their needs. Sometimes they ask, “When am I going to get that skateboard?” or some other toy. I know that that is not a need and that I can tell them that it could be delayed until God blesses us with extra money and that we can pray about it and ask God. I was thinking that we do that to God all the time and he has promised to take care of us. We don’t have to ask for him to feed us or clothe us. That’s what he does; He supplies our needs. We may have to wait on the extra things until his timing or He might even say no, but He does take care of His children.
Ephesians 1:7-14 is an awesome passage of scripture that I can read and keep my confidence that God has given me wisdom and understanding and that “He has made known to us the mystery of His will according to His good pleasure.” If you are at a crossroads in your life, read this scripture and be encouraged that he has a purpose for you.
I am looking forward to a new chapter in my life and becoming more of the woman of God that He has designed for me to be. I will greatly miss the life I have had over the last few years and I hope to remain in contact with most everyone through Facebook.
If our ministry has blessed you in any way, please consider supporting us in prayer and in financial support while we are in this tough season of our lives. Please let us know that you are praying. It is a great encouragement to know that people care. I want to thank those who have told us they are praying and I am praying blessings on each one of your lives. Also, feel free to give us your prayer requests. If you comment below and wish for your comment to be private, please let me know in your comment and I will not approve it to be shown on this page or you can email us.
Until next time,
Pastor Sherry